A personal experience…

I’m going to mention here about and incident a few weeks ago. To be honest it seems like it isn’t part of my life, but it did happen. I’m quite nervous about posting this.

Anyhow, maybe I should actually just tell it, hopefully all will become clear!

I was at a party a little while ago, and it was quite good fun, only, for reasons I can’t really remember now, I was feeling a bit lonely and such things. So on the way home I was quite down. I got off the bus, and I was walking up the road. A man approached me, and I don’t remember exactly what he said, but I understood what he meant: we would have some sort of sexual encounter, and he would give me money for this. I wasn’t certain quite what he expected, but I agreed. He took me down an alleyway-type thing, where I gave him a blow job.

Unsurprisingly, it was an unpleasant experience. I don’t want to go into too much detail about it – I am preparing a post where I will go into it a little bit more. I think I did it, though, because I didn’t see any reason why not to. I’m pretty sure I thought that he wanted to, and I wasn’t worth enough to say know.

I’m kind of scared about posting this, for a number of reasons. I really don’t want to offend somebody with this. Overall in my life I have been quite privileged, I think, and I really don’t want to compare my experiences with those of women who have to make the choice to go into prostitution (or any part of the sex industry) time after time, or equally with those who struggle to exit the sex industry. I’m also not entirely certain how I feel about it. Time will tell, I guess.